親愛的思琳:

我這絕對是一封樸實真情流露的信(有莫名喜感==)。

————————————————————————————————————————

好久不見了。沒想到我們居然可以在台北見面。

小的時候,我們一起唱歌,一起拍MV,一起玩樂。今天見到你的朋友,她大概是見過十年前的我吧,想起來覺得時間真的飛快的不可思議。

無法準確的來說,十多年過去了,我們從當初的小屁孩逐漸長大了,逐漸有了自己追求的世界,建立起自己的三觀。兩年前我來到台北,一個熟悉又陌生的城市,今晚與你分享的那些事情,我想了想,也許曾經不想繼續在台灣待下去,想去美國,但是不得不承認的是,台灣改變了我很多。

我實在是覺得很開心,你是如此優秀的孩子,優秀的朋友。更開心的是,這麼多年來,不管你在哪裡,你似乎一點改變也沒有。我總怕以前的朋友因為經歷著不同的人生,讓一些不好的東西一點點腐蝕他們的心智,最後再也不聯絡。今晚我也說過,真正的朋友,也許在不同的道路上成長,但最後終究能走到一起。

我開始想像我們的未來,珍惜我們從現在開始的新友情。

今晚帶給我的感覺,像是我們十幾年來又重新認識了一次,你帶來的是正面的力量,好讓我從這緩慢從容的城市裡不忘追逐我的夢。

希望你在美國,在耶魯,開啓你嶄新的人生。保持聯絡。


好運~~~


老友 燦燦

2013年5月2日

台北

 

Wheat Field with Crows - 

Vincent Van Gogh.


我為它配上了「Vincent」的歌詞:

This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.


當我在課堂上看到這幅畫時,眼眶竟泛淚光。那一種激動的感覺不知從何而來。

老師提問:為什麼天空這麼暗,麥草卻如此亮?為何路至一半竟斷?

當時我想的答案是:因為有月亮。


後來陸陸續續有人舉手,老師不斷提示「這是他的最後一幅畫」。

有人說,現實的黑暗在蠶食理想的光明;

有人說,是作者本身內心矛盾世界的表現;

有人說,路至一半,暗示他即將走到人生一半而已;

有人說,他在路上感到迷茫,迷失方向,因此至一半就斷去了;


在人生必去的目的地上添上一筆:荷蘭阿姆斯特/丹梵高博物館,去看看它——Dear Vincent。


 

Iron Man 3,台北西門日新威秀IMAX影城。

唉,就是衝著IMAX去的,首先要聲明的是,我對小羅伯特唐尼的興趣遠遠超過鋼鐵俠的興趣。

最典型的美國式科幻英雄電影最愛用的元素之一就是大面積的毀滅性破壞,這真的讓人太不爽了==而且暴力、噁心也常常被濫用在這種電影裡面。特別是噁心..........生化危機這種我真是覺得已經夠了,怎麼可以噁心到這種程度,而鋼鐵俠裡面出現的,居然是打不死的「絕境戰士」?!這四個字是台灣翻譯裡面出現的,怎麼好像還很牛逼轟轟的樣子。

而且,台灣到底在搞什麼噱頭,4月24領先全球上映?!而且爆米花和汽水杯子還印成鋼鐵人的樣子,而且還送四只小公仔。我越來越不明白了。而且同伴與我決定要買包括以上的套餐的時候,她居然說,公仔只剩鋼鐵愛國者號的了沒有鋼鐵俠的了,握了一個擦,那我買個屁啊==

好,以上是激動了一點,還是說回這部電影。


學電影的朋友聽說我要去電影院看這部電影的時候,就淡淡的回應了,這種爛片你也要看。確實是大爛片沒有錯,情節冗長,有時候Tony Stark的那種幽默變的氣氛有點尷尬,結尾那是什麼啊,影院還提示說結尾有精彩blahblah,不就是一個跟我不熟的綠巨人和Tony Stark的小對話,而且重點是那個敵人是打不死的噁心人,再來一個重點,中國幹嘛莫名其妙的就被扯進去,而且這個掛號的大BOSS居然叫Mandarin,這個Mandarin居然還是個吸毒的瘋瘋癲癲的演員,真是高端黑死中國人啊。(不過也證明了中國崛起==不能忽視,我自認為/)這部片中途我一度看不下去,我也不懂為什麼有人可以一看再看,二看三看,還是覺得很好看。

不過我讚同一點是,這種需要特效,音效,需要這種震撼效果的片還是適合到電影院看的。不然你能想像,在宿舍裡,帶著耳機,看這十幾寸手提電腦螢幕看著鋼鐵俠的情景嗎?

如果一定要說點好的,我太喜歡結尾了,浪漫的(雖然不足以化解我對以上的不解)讓人覺得看了這個IMAX版我覺得還是可以接受的,那ironman組團放煙花,棒。

以上,我不想再說了,絕對不會再看第二次。

 

創始基金會療養院,台北,萬芳國小。

台灣的大學有一門必修課叫做服務教育,不管是系、院或社團。多半是做做愛心,捐捐發票,打掃打掃公共場所,而今天,我們來之前並不知道要做什麼,以為只是簡單的做一些事情而已——雖然今天的事情也不難,卻讓人心裡留下了一些什麼——與植物人對話。

在台灣,這樣的慈善機構不少,用台灣人的話來說,就是四個字——「佛心來的」。創始基金會服務內容包括三部分:痴呆老人、植物病人和街友。他們憑著愛心人士的捐款,以及募發票得到的獎金(可能還有別的收入~)來支撐基金會的運營。

我沒有想過我會與植物人對話。

我不敢看他們。

更不知道「聊聊天」要從哪裡開始。

他們曾經都是一個正常的人,一個活潑的生命。可能是意外,只留下他們全身一雙眨巴眨巴的眼睛。他們聽得到,他們也看得到,他們很清醒。但是部分腦細胞死亡讓他們用盡十幾年甚至下半輩子都在等待一個重新復活的可能。

想起不久前因爺爺重病趕回老家探望的情形。重症病房裡,多是這樣的病人,我不清楚他們是中風或是其他,有一些病床旁一天到晚都有家人的守候,其中一床,每天晚上都會來一位女士,看她嫻熟的手法,我們猜想可能是專業的看護吧。後來一問,躺著的是她爸爸,她這樣每天下班後往來醫院已經長達七年。

七年,說長不長,說短不短,這樣的病人,家人們到底應該用什麼樣的心態來對應呢。在創世基金會裡的三十多位病人,大部份時間與他們相處的是護士和義工,他們的家人不常來,比他們家人更常來的是做「服務教育」的學生。

我一開始的時候情緒略崩潰,脆弱的無法跟他們說話。後來經過志工的開導,心情平復之後,再去試著跟他們說話,講一些自己覺得有趣的事情,講著講著,覺得也挺好的,雖然他們沒有動,沒有說話,但從他們呆滯的眼神中,我似乎可以感受到他們在聽我說話,喔,還有微微上揚的嘴角。

希望希望,他們有一天都可以醒過來,這不只是期望慈善機構可以為他們帶來生的希望,而是每一個通過「服務教育」去探望他們的學生和志工可以為他們帶來的,更是隨手捐發票,說不定就能在經濟上給他們更大的幫助。

經過這一次,我們真的該學會珍惜生命,懂得知足的快樂,同時,應該更腳踏實地地去追求我們想要的生活。

 

照理來說,我難過的是,沒有一個瞭解我的人告訴我魏如萱的歌我一定會喜歡。

今晚不小心聽到「晚安,晚安」。那種,無法訴說的感情,沒有依附的對象,空有一腔熱情的失落,被這四個簡單的字,一觸及爆發。內心在爆發。

魏如萱一定是雙魚座。

 

Magical Realism DREAM

我夢見Chiao了,這是個很短的夢,在我剛剛醒來之前。

本來我們在大禮堂彩排頌送舊的舞蹈,結果我跳到一半就衝出去,因為實在是不會跳又沒有練習,(居然也沒有人追我)我走出來之後,居然直接走到SS門口的噴泉去了,而且那裡還是個游泳池,想游泳來抒發一下心情,結果我就看見我初中好朋友姚美女站在宿舍那邊的樹下等我,於是我走過去,寒暄兩句。我就跟她走了。

我們穿過3座房子左右的密道,而且都是中國古代建築,舖著紅地毯,當到了最後一層的時候,我覺得不太妙,我就跟她說,額,姐要走了。她壞笑,說你看看是誰你再走嘛。

好,結果,這個故事的結局就是,我看見姚老爸和沒戴眼鏡的Chiao在一起吃飯,而且,他們兩個好雞,Chiao還在那邊蹭姚老爸的脖子,我快笑吐了。姚老爸問Chiao說,我是誰啊,Chiao就說,我一個學生啊,就很像我們宿舍長那個,(這句話我現在才想起來,他們宿舍長應該是男的吧)。然後說到「weekend」這個詞,Chiao突然問我說,這個是單數還是負數,我隨便說「單,單數吧~」他用他固有的那種==「(略抓狂)怎麼是單數呢??!!!」好我以後都記得weekend是複數了(我現在上百度查一下)


我靠,真是太好笑了。

我第一次把夢這麼清楚的記錄了下來。

 

我很感動。

有一種熱情,關於攝影,關於紀錄,被激發了。這真是一種做一輩子都不會覺得沒有意義的工作,不說工作,一種奉獻。有的戰地記者,用自己的生命換來傳了幾十年的作品,然而在這個幾十年後,當人們看到,還是一樣會感動,真的很有價值,真的很詞窮。

當志工導覽說到某一些話的時候,我真的快要掉眼淚。好久好久沒有被這麼感動過了。

這個世界,是需要有一些人為我們奉獻一些這樣的東西,傳遞給全世界的人知道各個地方的狀況,世界才會變的更好。活的很滿足的人才會懂得珍惜,懂得珍惜他們來之不易的豐富的資源。懂得珍惜啊,人類。

我現在貌似有一點語無倫次,因為一個抓狂的線上報告討論-which我覺得線上討論實在是太麻煩了-so先解決報告再來說....

 

Alpha Dog

Justin Timberlake & Amanda Seyfried


Anyway, at the beginning, I have no idea what those scenes mean, at the end of Alpha Dog, I finally figure out this is a story adapt basing on a true story. That makes this film powerful and special, and more thoughtful.

A young boy, Zack, whose brother owe a drug dealer's money, was kidnapped by that drug dealer and his friends. Strangly, Zack wants leave home too. So these men's kidnapping is not mean too much for Zack, and maybe it means some excited games for this fifteen-year-old boy. Although, this kind of behavior is criminal for those drug dealer, they would be passed sentences for life or even more.

Disappointedly, these drug dealers did not make the right decision. They killed that boy to cover their crime at one time. But we know that consititue won't ignore them and give them a charge.


As to me, we really should think about our parents words though they make you annoyed. The boy wants fresh things but he chooses wrong person and that person lead him to die. That boy is absolutely innocent. It's was totally a tradegy and no one can help that lose-mind guys turn to right way.

We should really consider very desicion we will make, everything. We need to take the responsibilities. Now, we are all adults, so, don't make any decision when you are losing your mind even with you crazy friends. That's so terrible.


Do things right, do right things.

 

We need to talk about Kevin 2011

Tilta Swinton & Erza Miller


This is a thoughful and serious-topic film. Kevin is a anti-social boy and it bother his mother from his birth. We can feel deeply from those scenes that the mother Eva bear such hugh stress from her weird boy.

The long-story film ends with an event that Kevin's crime of killing students in his high school even sister and father. That's such terrible thing. Althought, the real thing we should thing about is "WHY".

If that's me Eva, I must lost my patient to treat this kind of weird kid especially when he is mouth of dirty words and behavior not like a normal person and almost not to show his kindness anytime. I must escape away though that's my kid.

But, luckily, at the end, we can see Kevin and Eva hugging each other tightly. Maybe it means their relationship is much better than before? I don't know.

All in all, that's a opening ending of this film. And, we still can figure out many elements of why Kevin will behavior like this, might be his family relationship or school mates. Whatever, we don't know. We should learn from this film and think deeply about it.

 

Perfume: The story of a Murderer 2006

Ben Whishaw


To begin with, I noticed this movie because of its leading actor Ben Whishaw. I found him excellent and cute in Cloud Atlas and then in 007 SKYFALL. He's really an excellent actor.

And accidently, I heard this movie from my roommate when she was talking about some kinds of Literary films and she said this film is some kind of horror film. But after I'm seeing it, it's totally not a horror film at all. It just some kind of weird. Always some weird film has a great film script that and absort the audience to focus and attracted by its story.

Purfume does, it really does and does it very well. Just look at the words discribing the story, it's attractive enough as well as the leading actor is one who I'm interested at. 

I think talk more about the story will be better than just talk about this appearance outside. Jean who is talented at telling thousands different kinds of smell was born inthe most dirty place in Paris and he suffered bad life until he met a Flavorist who can teach him how to keep smells. After that, he seems to find the reason why he exist in this world - to keep smells. Jean thinks and does tests days and nights to keep smells till - his master can't teach him what he really want. Jean's master told Jean togo to another place and there's another master who can teach him. Jean tried everything because he was fascinated by the smelling from young girls. It's so horrible that Jean try everything to keep this kind of smell even to kill many girls and did tests on them. 

This's a long part of this film. But what i'm thinking is, how did the script writer turn the smell from young girls into the smell of LOVE. And the prefume which gather many those girls' smell can make people love. I don't believe it and when I looked up this movie on Douban, I saw the type of film is fascinating and drama. Wow, how fascinating is it! I can't agree more.

Everytime I saw this kind of fascinating of fancy movie, I know that I'm not only need to know the information that the film gave us directly, but also think about why it become this.

At the end of the film, there's a suprised view of thousands of people making love in the palace because of smelling that perfume. Is this the power of LOVE? Whatever, Jean can't love or be loved anymore since he first time kill that girl.

Eventually, I figure out that maybe this's a film talking about LOVE. Why Jean want to collect those young girls' smell is also because of the LOVE. But it's such a tragedy Jean had nothing at last.


I want to see this film twice in the future, it makes me think about love.

One more, some people can do anything good or bad to earn their own love whether is correct of not. In one sentence, everyone deserves their own LOVE.

 

The Time Traveler's Wife

I have met this film many years ago when I'm still in high school and do some VOG work. This film is showed in one VOG and I'm very impressive at this movie.

Their love is so touch me and I do hope for a kind of love like that. This kind of lovewill be take a life-long time and I will love that man with all my heart and never betrayed him.

It's a fantastic play again. These years many films talking about time travel or mind travel have been much more than before. For instance, <Inception>, <Source Code>. I think the greatest point of film is that film can make something that impossibly happen in true live come true. That's so amazing and with this account I love watching films.

 

Silver Linings Playbook

Bradly Cooper & Jennifer Lawrence


My favourite part of this film is the ending when Tiffany and Pat kisses. That's so romantic.

As the report of this year Oscar Reward, Jennifer Lawrence won the Best Actress so I want to see this film. It's such a long film but it's fine with it's story. Tiffany(Jennifer Lawrence) show her great power in this role playing a woman with some problems, I did shocked by her power. 

And this film shows some problems. One of the problems is the communication among families. We can see Pat's father is not soft as his mother did and the father always push Pat to do something he don't like. And it problely cause the Pat's mind break and going to the phychologist. 

The second one is both Pat and Tiffany can't face directly to their broken marriage whatever their partner is dead or betray them. I never suffer this but I guess it mustbe hard. Just like Pat, after Nikki left him, he really tries to be more positive and passionate and change his life to a better way. That's good. 

The last one is the treatment from stranger and some families friends. These peopledon't treat them as a normal person. They ridicule, they gossip, and these kind of behavior will add more stress to Pat. It's not a positive environment to help Pat to recover. So we can learn to more forgive and don't treat these people in a mean way.


That's it. I'm going to watch something else in the cold cold taipei evening.

 

FUN.

Some nights. 2nd album.

I saw them first time on 55th GRAMMY. FUN is the funny band's name and I'm suprised because of their really raining-singing. The water falled down on there bodies and their intruments but they still very high on the stage. That's great.

As my birthday gift I bought their Grammy album- Some nights which is very amazing. I found that I can just use 'amazing' to express how I'm amazing. Oh shxt. So, this album is worth to hear carefully and you will get some special experience.

Comparing to the singer in China, we will amazed at the foreign singer because of their amazing and giving themselves out performence and we'll very very enjoy in it.

Great music should be heared by people. This album is great, so we should have it and listen their voice.

 

The Perks of being a wallflower.

Logen Lerman & Emma Watson & Erza Miller

Charlie & Sam & Patrick

It makes people think a lot after we finish watching. It's such a meaningful film that remind me of my youth I had comparing to the Americans'.

At my high school, my live is only filled with study and prepare countlessly exams. I'm exhausted every weekday even on weekends during the junior three. Should we really need to have so much subjects and press from the college-entering test. Though, I recall to that theory of my high school, I feel very substantial. Meanwhile, we seems don't have much time to think about what our lives going to be in the future. This is so sad because we work really really hard but we don't know what we are preparing for. It's so complicated to tell how I really feel about my three years in high school or more three years in junior high school.

All in all, I don't regret it.

Another point in this film I want to talk about is the mental disease done to one. We should try to know more about that one but not escape from him/her. I know there's someone have this kind of problem around me but I always try to escape her or pretend notseeing her even never want to shake my hand to say hello to her. Deeply, she should feel sad and alone, but I dont even want to give a hand. I can't face this kind of situation, I scared. She must be scared too.

Let's think, maybe everyone will get some mental hurt in their heart that they could never mention, we should treat everybody equally, right? I just can't persuade myself, but I'll try, OK?


In this film, I like Patrick, I like Charlie too. Charlie is quiet but he is erudite, he understand, he choose not to hurt Elizabath though it's not good. He's very nice. Few young people love him though he never send his first kiss. I hope there's someone can love me too. Now not because I will be busy in preparing applying for my Master degree two yearlater. I just want to make some effort on my dreaming way, I should be work harder.

All the things gonna happen in the future, I'm very very looking forward to that.

 

Die another day. The 20th of 007 series.

THAT IS AMAZING again....

每部007都那麼長,而這部雖然是2002,也有10年了,但是那個amazing的程度一點都不亞於現在的電影,只是有些特效場景看起來有些生硬罷了。

冰宮是一個神奇的存在,印象中也有出現過一個在北極圈附近的冰宮酒店,聽說還能看到北極光。不管是現實還是虛擬的存在,這個冰宮都太美了。

最最最最高潮的地方應該是James和「趙」大破冰宮的時候,那個橫衝直撞不顧一切,確實是精彩。

可是,最近突然發現這些有打鬥諜戰成分的電影有一點讓我非常不喜歡的,就是,太容易出現破壞性的場景,而且這些破壞都是毀滅性的,讓我覺得有一些難以言喻的不舒服。

總的來說007系列還是很精彩的,雖然現在才看了四部,Halle Berry太美了,Pierce Brosnan,雖然以前好像沒看過他的電影,但是深入人心的007形象讓人覺得,對,這就是007。

好吧,一大早起來到現在還沒有吃東西,趕緊去煮餃子了。

 
© mintcano | Powered by LOFTER